Feeling I know

In the final days of summers rushes, videographer Syd Woodward (Get Grounded TV, Overgrow The System) came over to my home with his camera in tow. It seemed as good an idea as any, to capture the sound of something fresh and presently resonant. So when I sat down to sing for Syd and his camera, I decided to play a song that I had only just begun to feel was nearing completion. We did one take and then went back to enjoying the summers dying breaths. It was, if nothing else, a moment; simple and true, and then forgotten.
Months later the archive of said moment arrived via email and I found myself dissecting it’s every breath. I was frustrated by the apparent unpolished nature of the performance, and the tentative immediacy of the delivery. I filed it away un-posted and sighed a lamentable sigh assuming I wouldn’t share it at all.
Fast forward another month or so, and here I am writing this post while the video uploads to the wilds of the internet. Now, with the space for reflection that enables a quieter ego, the flaws and the immediacy seem to communicate what I hoped for when I began penning the tune. I remember the moment the song began; when the first lines of lyric slipped from my lips. They offered me comfort while I was trying to mask my self-consciousness with a relaxed and somewhat distant demeanour despite knowing how I truly felt. Sometimes a crowd can be a lonely place. We aren’t always the best at remembering to be inclusive and open. Life can keep us mired in the shallow end for longer than is comfortable when what we are really seeking is true connection and interaction. It is a feeling we all know, no matter how confident and happy we seem from the outside.
So, to the universality of feeling like an outsider, or like someone who doesn’t measure up in a given moment, I offer this little ditty, warts and all.

Enjoy!

Much love,
Jess Hill

:FEELING I KNOW:

First it’s listless, than it’s lazy
Leads you to those loose lies in these tight times
With your eye on the door, always tapping your toes
Baby, it’s a feeling I know
And all the bright eyes with the white teeth, smiling in the sidelines
Little lost sheep, you think you’re so alone
Baby, it’s a feeling I know
All the secret voices that fill your heart
Going through the motions of the hardest part
I will hold the door if you will hold my hand
We could go together, baby, take a chance
Everybody’s hiding in the laughter in the dark
Holding up a searchlight for a wide and open heart
I will hold the mirror; a lighthouse we could be
Guiding all the ships into the harbour safely
Baby, it’s a feeling I know

Portraits

Amanda from Brutally Beautiful (she’s got a special on Headshots right now; check it out!) and I did a super raw and spontaneous set of portraits last month. We wanted to make use of my empty bedroom and it’s great natural light before the Princess Haus was vacated for good.
Spontaneous and raw in this case meant no makeup and no hair styling and a real sense of abandon.
We had some beautiful times in the Princess Haus making it our venue, gallery, dancehall, community center etc. and it was great to squeeze one more project into the space as we packed the boxes and scrubbed the floors.

Here’s a little peek at what we got up to!

Connections Collaboration

Very recently Vancouver producer/performer Legsss and I decided to make a little music together. Going into it we had no idea what would come out of it, and frankly we still don’t. That being said we have somehow been invited to perform at Vandocuments Art Party: Connections. For those of you unfamiliar with Vandocument, it is a remarkable arts and culture online publication for the Vancouver arts and performance communities. The party is Saturday November 8th at The Remington Gallery and I am as excited as I am nervous. I know wholeheartedly that this is the perfect audience for Legsss and I to explore our barely pre-meditated, mostly improvised collaboration with. Come check it out, and heaps of other insane talents at Connections this Saturday!!!

“Underweight” – down under

If you know me then it is no secret that I am a fool for a late night of dancing fuelled by quality electronic music. I am far from being a connoisseur of the discipline and can barely identify the genres to save my life but I know what I like when I hear it.
Vancouver is home to same incredible DJ’s who have their finger on the pulse in terms of creative output and an audience with the tech savvy, digital know how to share it around their communities. One such man is Michael Red, who is not only a fantastic DJ but also operates/curates a label called Low Indigo that spawned a fantastic social media link sharing community on that site we’ve all become addicted to, and shall therefore remain unnamed. I became a member of that message board as it was chalk full of tasty sonic delights for me to explore and experience and support.
One of those links, sometime in the last year was to a DJ in Melbourne, Australia named Wabz.
I was immediately enamoured of Wabz’s stuff and found myself shyly typing up a message. I sent a link to my music in the interest of sharing and made a brief mention of some stems I had from my album Orchard on the off chance they might want to put my voice into an aural landscape.
From way over on the other side of this marble we call home new sounds were born of old sounds and the evidence lives in this track called “Underweight”.
Please have a listen and if you feel to, share it with your friends.
This is for me one of the ways in which my worlds are beginning to merge. I am so thrilled to be a part of this new musical tradition; whether through remixes, re-imaginings or simply collages of sounds. To be in the act of sharing and engaging is to grow as an artist and perhaps more importantly as a human.
In the near future I will hopefully be able to post some links to collaborations that have begun with some local producers that I adore; Blocktreat, and Legsss.
In the meantime take a minute to check out what all Wabz has to offer and see if you can guess what song of mine the vocal in “Underweight” comes from.

False Spring

Novembers Child

Falling Favourites

My favorite season has begun and it is not disappointing in any capacity. The brisk sunny days, the invitations to entertain the muse over tea, the shedding of dying attachment, the confetti and tears of natures celebratory heart, the sweet scheme of color that warms even in the cold, the apples, the pumpkins, the cozy woolen wears!

Penticton, Coldstream, Kaslo, Kimberley and Nelson

RELEASE PARTY!

Pieces EP photo shoot with Brutally Beautiful

This past Friday Amanda Bullick of Brutally Beautiful and I got together to do the artwork and promo shots for the Pieces EP. We did it all, from set up to shoot to layout in one day! Thank god for the clarity of dreams that direct your vision and friends with the skills and talent to help realize them! Thank you, Amanda!

The album cover!!!!